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2005-12-05T17:42:00.000+08:00

hihi
i finally post a entry le! hehe..
juz feel like doing it for those who will read my blog de..
haha.. last sat, 3 Dec 2005, i went for the Sharity Gift Box..
c i so kind-hearted rite.. haha..
anyway, it was quite fun, get to know this grp of frenz from Adverture Rope Course de..
haha.. they v crap sia.. have fun talking to them..
knowing their juicy gossip..
but the sad part is didn get to say bye to them..
cos i went to toilet, aft i came back, they went hm le..
sob.. but wan to say i reali hav fun time with them.

eh.. wan to say the impression of some BB primer ppl changes..
some change for better some change for worse..
haha.. some v scary sia.. abit scare by them! haha..
but one thing, quite pissed off is that that fri nite..
cos i stay in sch wit ken, alvin n eileen overnite..
we even buy tibbit to camp over n watch movie la..
but in the end, sickening ERIC go scold us n order us to go slp lo..
FOR MY GOODNESS SAKE, THAT IS OUR PROBLEM LA!
keep ordering us around like monkey..
tat time, me, clara n amy do the BB booth aso like this..
anyway i realise ERIc hates my gang ppl sia..
think we snatch away alot of the ppl attention la, den he jealous!
so ANGRY!!

anyway,wan to say some happy thing :)
recently, kendrick reali treat me v well..
i reali can feel his love..
i reali feel v XIN FU! eheh..
wan to tel him, i love him alot too.
but bet he dun even come my blog de.. ahaah..
gtg le..
blog another day! hehe..

2005-11-22T17:09:00.000+08:00

THIS IS CLARA.

wee hoon is such a pig. she refuses to update. ha! so CLARA is here to do it for her. but i can understand that she's busy...

we're all in school now, and amy and weehoon are busy doing their blaw tutorial. weehoon keeps saying she wants to change her blogskin. well, we'll just hafta be very patient i guess.

i'm not use to her keypad. i keep typing wrongly. i'm feelin so irritated now. so i wshla just stop here. anyways, weehoon says sorry to all her readers. haha she said that she'll update soon. i hope you guys are patient people! okieee.... ciao!

2005-10-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

yo.. hehe..

very long nv post le..

very lazy sia..

but today very fun..

went out wit Jie Shan to Bugis..haha..

we went Mac 1st den we reali have a chat aft so long..

den we head to TopShop! hehe..

she wan to buy a skirt at there.. $73 sia..

but i can get 30% off wo..

gal, see i so nice la!! haha..
we saw a bag tt she like in Sei Yu, got 20%..

den i saw OP skirt that cost onli $18.. so cheap rite..

i reserve it and we went to bugis village see if there is any more cheaper and nicer one.

in the end, GUESS WAT??!!??

i spend so much la..

actually onli got $60 la, wan to spend very little onli..

but saw Xiu Li at the Bugis village..

she told me she receive the pay le.. haha..

i so happy sia..
buy so many..

HERE IT GOES!!

one pair of jean -> $24

2 OP skirt -> $36

1 OP T-shirt for tm -> $16

1 Bugis Village skirt -> $10

1 Bugis Village tops -> $24

2 Bra and Pantie sets -> $17

2 black socks -> $2

plus my lunch a ice cream..

it cost me $130 la!!haha..

i very happy la..

so long nv spend like this le..

but i left wit $96 to survive the whole hoilday..

i think i wont shop for a veyr long time le..

I M SATISFIED!! haha..

after tt went for BB primer meeting..

miss my tt 10 pm show..

last le, hai~ but miss it..

sad.. tml stil working..

wan to slack at hm sia..

sianz.. k la.. i go slp le.. hehe..niteZ!

2005-09-25T00:38:00.000+08:00

wha.. i think my blog rot le sia..
bet no one come n c le..
haha.. nvm..
feel like blogging today..
recently, been having a hard time wit my ITP!
working in VEEKO reali sucks..
i reali dunno how to say sia..

wed got a break..
went out to celebrate my dearling AMY bdae..
reali have a wondeful times chatting wit her, clara n tm..
hehe.. actually it meant to be a gal gathering la..
but tm need formal wear so shop wit him n aft tt he juz tag along..
haha.. we talk abt our ITP!

Clara's ITP suck..
bad working envt n it is dangerous
so glad tt Clara manage to get another ITP so she dun hav to wait til next sem..
she now working in LEVI..
dunno is a gd thing anot cos retail v tiring..
GAL, muz take care..

for Amy's work place is ok.. she learning sth new..
she loves the job which is gd..
the hours aso v good..
she even got the spore press holding email leh.. so COOL!
very envy sia.. hai~

tm leh.. learn new thing..got to meet the supplier..isnt it sound SCARY n EXCITING?haha.. how i wish i got the chance.. hai~

ME?
work extra hours, kanna bully there..but it aso let me know who r the frenz who reali cares for me..this is sth to b happy abt..today manage to pack all the new stock into the store room..hope tt they wont have any more reason to keep me back late..can u imagine i work til like 11.40pm the previous nite..i work 13 plus hours..i nearly die..
i reach hm at 1 am la..
today went work at 10am..
but today feel so XIN FU!
tm wake up early juz to pei me go..
he give me a pouch.. haha..
SO HAPPY!! he is not tt kind of guy u know..
reali surprise but sweet! haha..

wan to say all my frenz who cares for me..
i reali love u guys..
u reali been very kind to me..
mayb i been very soft to them who bully me in my workplace..
haha.. n u all got worried n get worked up..
hehe.. but i c u all so worry i feel like kissing u all..
reali.. i feel yr care n concern..
i m touched at the bottom of my heart..

n to my family lo.. they reali cares for me..
they very worked up n very angry..
actually yest nite came hm wan to cry at my parent shoulder..
haha.. but no courage sia.. not used to this kind..
so cry at the bathroom.. haha..
dun even dare cry loud scare they worry.. haha..
abit lame sia..

to frenz i drift away..
actually this is for u all to read juz wondering if u all ll come n read anot?
anyway, wan to say..
not tt i dun cares for u all but recently reali wore out le..
havin a reali hard time..
WORST RETAIL LINE!
work in TOpSHOp n MAnGo..
concluse VEEKO is the WORST!!

2005-09-17T01:08:00.000+08:00

Wha..
So freaking long nv post le..
Been having a hard time for exam..
Finally it is all over..
Hope tt I will pass sia..
If not die le.. have to retake the module..

Today is the day we celebrate amy bdae..
Hee.. in the afternoon got OM exam..
Meet tm abt 9 am trying to study in Clementi Mac..
But in the end no mood, pei him go shopping instead..
He bought 2 polo t shirt..
So rich rite..

Den we hurry back to Clementi Mac n get start..
Tt time onli left 1 hr..
Chiong like siao.. hee
Den go sch n put amy present in the locker in sch..
Den go for exam..
Lucky.. thank god.. all the things tt come out I manage to read thru..
At least know how to bull shit..
Haha.. den aft exam, me n tm go take amy present at atrium locker..
Den Clara take Amy wit her to toilet..
The rest went to meet Zi Kang for the cake..

So glad tt Amy like the Swensen ice cream cake..
Hehe.. den we go to Clementi by bus..
But Amy sis frenz lock in her hse..
So have to go back n release her, in the end separate 2 group..
Tm gang go marina 1st n mine gang go wit Amy’s hse..

Amy open all her 19 present in the bus, so glad tt she like all.. hehe..
Den we meet the rest at marine bay..
Take many pretty pretty pic..
Clara was drank.. everyone was tired..
But we stil manage to walk from marina bay to city link there to take mrt..
Not a bad exercise, by den all food digest le..
See a FREAKING DEAD RAT on the way.. so scary..
Scare the hell off...

Wan to say to AMY darling:
Gal, reali glad tt u like the cake n present..
It is our whole lots of ppl effort..
Every present is to make up for not knowing u earlier..
Hehe.. frenzship will last long long..
Miss ya.. me love ya a lot..
Thou everyone very tired but the thoughts will stil b there ok..
Muack.. love u..

2005-09-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

Yo..
Hehe.. today got the mood to blog sia..
Hehe.. wan to say today is a happy day overall ba..
Hehe.. very glad tt Amy called me..
Haha.. recently reali drift away from her..
But today we have a long chat on phone..
Now ok le.. YEAH!~
It is all misunderstanding..
I thou she is referring to me in her blog..
Haha.. actually no.. haha..
Reali very happy..
Now I now how she reali feel..
Wan to say to her:
Gal, I reali love u.. when u wan talk call me k?
I promise next time if I feel I drift away from u..
U will be the 1st to know..

But at the same time, my boy aso angry wit me..
Hehe.. today went his hse study..
I arrive his hse abt 2 plus..
Den we eat b4 we started studying..
In the end, we study half way we go play sport..
We play who-la loop haha..
Skipping rope n pumping..
Haha.. I reali feel so happy..
But the nightmare come again..
In the above I mention I chat wit amy..
Tt time stil in his hse.. den we chat quite long..
Den in the end he angry wit me..
Cos I talk very loud as usual..
He cant study so he have to go out of the room..
Hai~ den ltr I finish chatting he angry..
He even say sth tt I feel hurt abt ba..
I understand how yr sis feel when u chat on the phone!
hai~ I reali very sad..
In the end he went back to the room where I m..
I reali cant study anymore so I pack up..
Den he open the door..
Like chasing me away..
At the time reali feel damn upset..
But now I feel I reali miss him..
I reali love him..
I reali very sorry to neglect him..
Thou tt I go his hse so tt he can study hard hard wont play game..
In the end is I cause him cant study.. hai~
It is all my fault..
I guess he is playing game now..
He so angry wit me, is it becos he care for me? Haha..
Cos I neglect him when I chat wit amy!
Btw when I was chatting wit amy..
He did sth very swt..
He write on my leg: This girl is MINE!!
Tt moment I reali wan to kiss him..
I reali feel so swt in my heart..
Juz wan him to know..
DUN BE ANGRY le la..
I love u..
I WONT NEGLECT U next time le..
I LEARNT MY LESSON le ya..

Thank God, for everything..
Thou today I nv reali study..
N quarrel wit him..
But I guess he reali start to love me lots..
Tt y he angry..
N aso amy n I ok le..
YEAH!~
Yu guo tian qing le..
Reali thank u so much..
Wan tel ak.. dun neglect god wo..
God love everyone..
Wan to say to everyone:
I LOVE U ALL too!

2005-09-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

today went back to HONG KAH SEC.. hehe..

actually go back is bcos of gathering not to c teacher.. haha..

saw a lot of my sec sch frenz.. hehe..

very happy..

got TseMin, Adeline, Willy, Byrant, Sze Ying, Tian Sheng, Justin, Yu Qing, Japheth, Tze Yuan, Alvin, Kelvin..

alot rite? hhehe.. miss those day sia..

sec sch days so fun.. in the condo classroom..

n aso the food.. hehe..

we eat 1st b4 we go find teacher.. haha..

talk alot of crap sia.. very fun..

den saw Ms Koh, Ms Lee, Mrs Er, Mrs Tan, Ms Hing, Mr Lee..

hehe.. quite a lot of teacher but all to me not close one..

stand outside the staff room damn long..

crap wit teacher den we go off..

actually aft tt nth much happen.. hehe..

we actually go back our condo classroom but in the end kanna chase out.. haha..

ade went off.. got camp..

kelvin went off.. go town..

byrant n szeying went off.. go home sleep..

den Tsemin wan me pei him go temple den go find others..

in the end, went back sch find eileen to return her notes..

den he go find others 1st but he lazy go..

so we juz go study.. heheh..

now in his house blogging.. lazy to study le..

hehe.. go read ppls blog.. hee..

i juz wondering do ppl read my blog very often? hehe..

i think the thing i type reali is abt me not others leh.. hehe..

i reali feel drift away from her..

i dunno is i or her?

but.. i can say..

mayb i have tm but i ll stil try not to bang sei..

did u all c my effort?

eh.. juz wan say..

i reali dunno wat can i do?

it is like she dun wan to be involve wit us..

i reali dunno ya..

we dun even know wat is going on in her life..

is her life.. we cant force her to tel us..

so wat can we do..

ask le she aso dun say..

of cos at the beginning reali wan to know..

but as u ask more times, u will be sick n tired of the answer le rite?

keep dun wan tel us..

is it my fault or her fault?

i reali dunno..

but i wan to say..

to her: dun u feel tt it is like u n yr gd frenz like tt meh?

at least this is how i feel..

dun u feel tt u again feel tt i neglect u bcos i have tm..

n i can tel u i feel tt yr gd frenz is back to yr side n u dun need me le..

this is how i feel..

it is like u r dumping me aside bcos she is back to yr side..

ok.. i have to admit mayb bcos of him, i neglect u..

but it is like yr whole attitude changes la..

wat u wan me to do..

how? can tel me?

n when i tel u i feel drift apart from u..

but u dun even feel tt..

wha.. how do u think i feel..

it is like our frenzship u aso cant be bother..

juz wan to say..

if u dun need me, juz say..

i wont hinder u anymore..

take care..

back to my happy mood..

i wan to say to all my SEC SCH frenz..

i miss u all alot..

very happy to same class as u all..

2005-08-30T22:35:00.000+08:00

Haha..
So long didn update my bloggy le..
Haha.. did u all miss me? Hehe..
Today I meet tm in the morning..
Actually yest quarrel wit him..
Eh.. but today ok le..
He pei me go buy assignment for my student..
Haha.. den go lib watch VCD.. haha..
The day aft tml.. so excting..
Eh.. today I go for ITP talk aft tt..
Sianz la.. onli got $500 la..
But the timing change abit le..
From 10.45 am to 8 pm.. haha..
Sth to b happy abt.. haha..
Today was a short day ba..
Go for ITP lect talk..
Den aft tt pei tm, bob n vin go play bball..
Very bored sia.. sit there like an idiot.. haha..
But can get to c him run like a stupid man..
It is worth it la.. haha..
Den finally managed to study a bit of om.. haha..
Den go home le..
Nearly quarrel wit him again.. haha..
Bcos wan him to study, den thou of confiscating his lappy..
Haha.. he so angry sia.. haha..
Muack.. in the end, give up le.. haha..
I end now le la.. hehe.. miss ya..

2005-08-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

haha..

today the biz image class was fun sia..

learn to put make up..

teacher got show demo on a gal..

haha.. den ltr on we get to put on make up too..

so excited la..

everyone like spider like tt..haha..

gan tiong cos they scare not very pretty.. haha..

den i aso.. scare.. got ask a lot of ppl for opinion.. haha

teacher got help me alot sia..

choose foundation colour..

the blusher i use my own..

the eye liner teacher help me put one eye.. the other eye i try myself..

the eye shadow.. eileen n june help me put one..

the lip stick i put it myself..

haha.. overall FUN~

i m a pretty gal.. hhaa..

lucky i borrow Clara's camera.. so COOL!

we took a lot of pic.. hehe..

today lesson is short n fun..

everyone like so bonded together like tt.. haha..

reali happy today..

i went tm hse today aso..

now stil at his hse typing blog..

haha.. he sleeping now.. so pig rite..

eat dessert at his hse..

his mom very sweet.. give me eat a lot of fruit.. haha..

beta end now.. take care..

2005-08-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

Yo..
Haha.. yest actually wan to type one..
But damn tired.. haha..
There is an incident tt I wan to share.. haha..
Yest me n tm go watch movie.. haha..
We watch Charlie and the chocolate factory in Jurong Point..
Quite nice.. it is a happy ending haha.. of cos la..
Den aft tt we finish watching, we wait til everyone go
Den we out from the front n go to toilet.. haha..
Aft tt, we very naughty.. haha..
We walk into the other cinema.. haha..
Eh.. damn SCARY la.. haha..
But very excited leh.. so COOL!!
1st time smuggle into a cinema..
haha.. feeling so GUILTY! Haha..
We keep looking at the entrance.. haha..
Scare kanna caught.. haha..
We aso wondering wat movie is it.. hahah..
I was hoping it is Bewitched, or the Land of the Dead.. haha..
In the end is THE MAID!
Oh my god, very scary la.. Haha..
We spend half of our time covering our ear and closing our eye..
It got story line sia.. haha.. not bad la..

Today was a tired day..
Actually wan wake up early one..
In the end, didnt so nv do hw.. haha..
I think my OM teacher hate me sia..
Cos I everytime dun do her hw one..
Sianz.. the note is juz too boring.. wan to do aso no mood..

Aft tt we go for lunch and go for MKT lect..
This week I very guai la.. all the lect I go sia..
I determine to study hard hard.. haha..

EC presentation is quite ok..
Lloyd n Greg webby damn nice la.. so pretty..
Mine new account still cant work.. no choice.. haha..
Amy n Clara one,, the shopping cart at last can work.. YEAH! Congra..
Ak n ZW one aso not bad leh.. very interesting juz the colour need improvement..
The rest was very good.. well done..

I meet tm aft EC..
Aft tt go play lan wit Clar, Vin, Ak, Diana, ZW..
Actually quite interesting sia.. haha..
See them kill here n there.. very SCARY sia..
I onli can play those kind tt can shoot own team member one..
Haha.. cos they wont kill me! Haha..
Eileen join us abt 7..
Lucky got her pei me..
We went to buy choc n jelly..

Aft tt, Vin, Eileen, Tm n me went to eat KFC!
Fattening.. haha.. who cares! Haha..
Tired sia.. wan to study in the end me n Tm no mood..
We decided to go home..
We have fun on the journey home.. haha..
Irrate him a lot..
He actually wan to slp but I keep disturbing him.. haha..

All my PROJECT finish le.. YEAH!!
Haha.. can finally rest le..
Tml I got image class..
It will teach us how to put on make up..
Haha.. I think I will look pretty la.. haha.. juz kidding..
But quite looking fwd to it.. hehe..
I will be taking pic too.. cos need to do a presentation for image..

Oh ya.. b4 I forget.. my attachment time is 11 am to 10 pm la..
No more LiFe for me le.. hai~
6 days per week! SUFFERS!!
No choice.. hai~ unlucky me!
It is at warehouse even more bad news!
No one can visit me le.. take care everybody..
Miss me while I m suffering k?
Hai~
Hehe.. stop typing le.. update another day!

2005-08-22T23:51:00.000+08:00

Haha
Today is a lucky day!
No AAA test..
Hahah.. so happy cos didn study at all..
In the morning wake up early to study..
In the end, I write the note n aft tt..
I go make my AI XIN breakfast for tm..
Haha.. so ugly sia..
Haha.. got bread n nugget..
Bread cut into heart, n nugget cut into wh n tm..
Some more I bring to sch.. so soggy le..
Like 3 hr later den he eat them up la.. haha..
Juz hope tt he reali like it.. haha..

IEF lect sianz.. dunno wat she saying aso..
No mood listening.. haha.. slack a lot.. die!
Aft tt go eat lunch..
Got to know where is my attachment le..
Damn sianZ..
Retail line AGAIN!!
Kao! Sianz la.. VEEKO at city link..
Wat the hell, confirm v little money one..
Y ppl can get OCBC or sth beta but not me..
Amy => Singapore post sth one..
Clara=> property sth one..
Tm, Zhi Wei, Greg=> trade asia sth one..
Ak, Diana => OCBC
Kao.. juz unlucky la..
Mood was reali down..
Next time u all muz come visit me k?
So tt I will be happier..

Today AAA tutorial, ak damn sad sia..
Eh.. dunno how to cheer him up..
Juz hope tt he is beta..
Wan to let him know tt everything god has its plan..
So he have to accept it..
But he aso make me ponder if tm got the same place as me..
Will he be happy or unhappy?
Will he think tt I m hindering him or
will he be happy cos he wont be alone.?
Juz a few qns pop out into my mind..
Will u tel me yr answer,?

Aft AAA, went to find the EC teacher..
Lucky, she is finally of some help sia..
She every time like cant help us one..
So happy.. now left wit new account cant work nia..
Hehe.. all can work le..
Eh.. Clara, Amy, u all dun worry, she can help u all one..
Clara cheer up..
Amy.. this few day like very drift away from u..
Eh.. juz wan to let u know tt.. if u wan ppl to talk to..
I m always here waiting to lend u a listening ear..
Muack..

I went to pei him eat aft I finish doing my EC..
Haha.. to me.. he very sweet cos when I wan to eat prune..
I fan him den he go buy for me eat.. haha..
Eh.. dunno leh.. juz feel very happy cos I reali like this feeling..
Haha.. thank u boy.. muack..

Tml there is MKT presentation la..
Die.. I like dunno my part la..
Eh.. some how I feel tt my point not very detailed..
But dunno how to add in.. so who cares!
Gtg le.. update another day!

Oh..btw.. yest I cut my hair le la..
Hai~ sob.. damn ugly.. cant stand..
I look at a auntie wit messy hair la..
Cant tie up somemore.. sianz diao..
WAITING FOR MY HAIR TO GROW!!
Faster sia.. if not I think he wont wan me le..
Hahaa.. juz kidding.. I so cute, he bu she de sia.. ahha..

2005-08-20T00:55:00.000+08:00

I m BACK wit a NEW blogskin! Haha
Nice? Nice? Nice?
Give me comment on my blogskin ok? Haha
Previously, a lot of ppl complain that the words too small..
So now I make it very big for u all to read..
Some also say I very long winded.. haha
I KNOW! I KNOW!! Haha
But like that u all can understand beta mah! I will try to cut down on the words one! Haha
Any comment put in tag board ok ok? Muack

Today is a fri..
Very lame, early morning go sch wit him..
Actually say going EC lect one la..
In the end he lazy, dont want walk up..
So I do my IEF tutorial, he play game..
He ah, onli conc on the game, ask him IEF, aso dunno wat he teaching me aso..
Anyhow! Anywhere!
Today IEF lesson, I very smart sia.. haha..
Teacher shoot a lot of qns to the class, I can answer leh!!!
Hehe.. so proud of myself sia.. n aso him! Haha..
Actually, I anyhow say one, in the end teacher say im correct, I damn shocked la!
TO him: Thank u for teaching me ABIT of IEF! Haha..

PROJECT ON HAND due next week! SIANZ!!
2 more to go.. JIA YOU!!!
Help me add oil wo!
Mkt on tueday , EC on Wednesday
Can can can!
Amy, Clara, Wanni and me went to the library to do mkt project after lunch..
He very sweet sia.. haha
He call me when he eat finish his lunch and ask me meet him at the lib stair..
He say he pass me sth! (I thou sth impt cos very troublesome 4 him to walk from C1 to lib)
GUESS WAT!!??!!
He scare I cold, he pass me his shirt..
I damn touched.. really..! muack..
He is tt kind of guy who dont do this kind of thing leh..
He surprise me but I reali feel XIN FU!

After mkt project, Wanni n me do EC project..
ERROR!! ERROR!!
So irrating.. SUCK!
2 troublesome page.. NEW ACCOUNT n SHOPPING CART!!
Anyone can HELP ya..
I called him to come down from lib to Atrium to help us with the EC webby..
In the end, aso didn let him do aty.. haha..
Sorry boy, cos we juz keep redoing..
Hehe.. BTW there is a small secret btw him n me wo!
Haha.. promise him cant tel anyone le..
Sth that happen when he doze off.. haha..
GUESS~

Me n him went to westmall eat dinner..
KFC, so fattening.. haha
Who CARES! Haha..
But I pass most of the FATTY n OILY skin to him.. haha..
Smart rite?
Tonight the moon damn round..
We even try to predict tml weather.. haha..
HOT!! SUNNY!! -> BRIGHT moon
WONT RAIN -> LITTLE clouds

The whole night have been trying to edit the blog..
I really like this blog skin.. so pretty! Haha..
Hope u all like it too..
Muack..

2005-08-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

Today is a day of enlightened!!
Haha.. THANK YOU GOD! Hheehhe
In the morning, I very happy cos Diana very sweet leh.. can u imagine she filled up a bottle of m&m s choc n give it to me.. very pretty u noe.. so colourful leh.. I so touched.. can u imagine someone so sweet juz wan to cheer u up by making this effort.. I reali v happy n touched.. somemore got a damn sweet letter in it.. the details is.. for me to know n for u to find out.. haha..
Today beginning of the day actually still damn hurt n upset n everything one.. but stil hav to meet him to return his jacket n cd.. so hav to meet him.. very hurt when he say tt he read my blog le, n say he wont regret his decision one.. hai~ sad aft passing him the thing.. I actually wan to talk to him, wan clarification but in the end dun hav the courage to know le, aft reading his tt msg.. reali wan to know, but I know I will b very sad.. so I cry once again.. in the morning stil can tel ak tt I wont shed a single tears for him.. kao! Not even half a day sia.. haha.. so weak.. anyway nvm..
In the end aft lunch, I stil decided to meet him.. this time he actually no mood to talk to me.. but in the end stil hav la.. cos reali wan to know ba.. thou will b sad but stil dun wan regret.. eh.. quite funny when we face each other.. like dunno wat to start.. but the starting was ok aft all.. dunno how it lead to but ended up got tell him me, amy n clara yest went drinking.. haha.. the vodka for me.. amy n clara dunno drink wat breezer.. cant remember the name.. haha.. the experience very fun la.. hehe.. 1st time drink wit my frenz.. Very happy. But aso to drank myself.. but too bad la.. 4 percent onli.. kao!! Not even feeling giddy la.. haha.. IM SO STRONG!
Anyway, all the qns tt I wan to ask him all didn get a answer sia.. so disap.. but nvm.. the main turning point for me today is to go for cell group.. eh.. I reali very tired but dunno y I stil decided to go for it.. cos mayb I reali wan to get some answer from god.. so I went.. den the message is the one tt make me think thru all those times I been thru.. all the sadness n everything.. It goes like this.. we need to remember wat you need to remember n forget wat we need to forget. The thing to forget is our sorrows n past failures, the past hurts n let downs.. the thing to remember is how good god is, how god gives u victory, the word that god spoke to u, the 1st love we have for Jesus..
It is so true.. I cant juz keep on holding on to the sorrows n the let downs that he given to me.. in order for me to move on is to forgive him.. in the bible got say we hav to love our enemy.. wat more someone who u love.. hehe.. so true.. since I love him so much I shld forgive wateva he done.. hehe.. but I aso realize tt I hav to move fwd.. I cant staying in the past.. this includes the love for him! Haha.. I think he will be damn happy to read my blog sia.. haha.. I forgive him n not loving him le.. I think this is wat he wan aso.. juz b good frenz.. hehe.. I understand it le.. if I were to hold on to the past n not talk to him I think I m reali gong to be miserable.. I realize I reali like him as a good frenz n love his company.. I cant get used to without him in my life ba.. but dun worry.. I will adopt too.. not too dependent on him..
Here now I wan to say a BIG THANK u for all my frenz who is so concern abt me tis period of times.. I think I think everything thru.. GOD has enlightened me in a way.. hehe.. n now I m happy.. muack..

2005-08-12T00:12:00.000+08:00

Yo..
Today is the end of my saddness.. haha
I decided to pull myself up.. I think I can make it.. wit all my frenz ard me.. I can do it.. I even got god!! Hehe.. yeah! Finally over..
To him: juz wan him to know wat is going.. the reason y I so angry n sad is tt u r doing the thing on me now instead of her.. u get wat I mean? When u choose me, u didn clarify wit her. n she got angry! N u regret choosing me, n u back out.. n give me up again.. hurt me again.. So deep.. so deep.. HELLO MAN!!! U r repeating yr mistake.. but I tel u la.. this time u cant regret le.. u can nv change yr decision..! u going to live wit it.. n thank u for yr decision wo.. u prove me tt it is damn true tt couple can nv b frenz aft break up.. I understand y cos the hurt is so pain tt u dun even wan to c him cos it will remember u of the hurt! I understand y ppl think our relationship will nv work out, is bcos u lack of courage to believe tt it will work.. is u choose to give up on me.. Wan to tel u tt all I wan from u is a clarification.. if u say u didn clarify wit her, bcos u feel tt she is juz a good frenz to u.. but wat about me?? I m yr so called one day gf.. how can u dun give me a final answer.. if yr final answer is both aso dun choose, in a way u choose her.. the most hurting thing is u always wan to find her n talk to her since tt day u hurt her.. but wat abt me.. boy, no point avoiding the prob when it is there n it is a BIG PROB, ok? U reali expected me to treat like nth happen.. how can this be? I m human.. u can be so mind abt how much u hurt her.. but y u didn realize how much u hurt me.. y? u cares more for her den me..
So tt is all I wan to tel u.. learn yr mistake la.. nvm.. it dun matter to me anymore.. thing can nv b the same.. ever since.. u send me tt msg asking me moves fwd n be strong.. u understand how I feel!???!!! If u reali did.. u wont treat as nth happen.. n juz take thing b the way it is.. she mean a lot to u aft all.. I understand everything le.. u can have her n all her frenz.. but NOT ME anymore.. n abt the project u might feel funny working wit me.. dun worry.. I will juz pei he u no matter wat.. I wont pull down the whole grp.. bye forever, my ex, my ex good frenz n wateva memory tt u give me.. wateva cares tt u ever give me.. I think all this dun matter le.. I M ANGRY n UPSET cos u everytime give me the idea tt I can stil hav..u back.. but everytime u hurt me.. u make me waste so much time on u.. I carry on now.! Dun b sad if u r .. cos she is there for u at least.. be glad ba..!

2005-08-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

Hahha..
I m back to post.. where shld I start? Eh.. I think this is the brand new beginning of mine..
Oh man, I reali thou I can succeed in getting over him.. but who know.. he msg me n tell me he chosen me.. haha.. I can tell u how freaking happy I m.. it is like over the moon.. can u believe it.. I FINALLY SUCCEED!!! Sometime I reali find myself very funny.. y can I love him for so long.. hai~ anyway I was reali overjoyed.. n u know wat, aft so long, he have asked me to be his gf again.. I was almost close to tear.. he even ask me to stay over at his hse.. which in the end I did.. I was so excited the next morning..
Actually going to picnic one.. but last min amy not feeling well.. so cancel.. I reach his house abt 2 plus.. I was reali v happy.. the whole nite cant slp bcos of tt.. hai~ see him I was so happy.. we play maple story together.. den we study abit.. den we went out to buy our dinner n his dad.. can u imagine to me it is like so sweet!!! To have someone u love by yr side.. to go shopping for dinner.. to me it is like husband n wife.. he reali treat me very good.. he let me feel how much he reali cares for me..but HERE COME MY NIGHTMARE!!!
It ended everything by a call from clar.. he called him to tel him tt she is angry wit him n even scolded fuck!! Y?? y?? it reali ended my whole magical day! Can u believe?? Juz a call.. A moment we r so happy.. now he is so sad.. can u imagine the whole dinner he is thinking abt tt.. even im beside him, make no diff.. can u understand how heartache I feel? At a moment he is yrs n the next moment he is others.. at the moment he love u so much the next moment he is concern abt her.. WAT ABOUT ME!!!??!! Who been thru so much for him.. who is always there for him.. y muz he do this to do.. he feel guilty!! He feel guilty.. wha.. so he feel tt he make the wrong choice.. he feel tt he shldn b so chiong dong to choose me.. at the moment my heart break! FROM THE TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN, GO ALL THE WAY DOWN! He say tt he wan none! He dun wan hurt anymore ppl le.. but he has hurt me!
To him: have u ever think of my feeling? U feel tt u cause her to be upset but wat abt me.. my happiness is gone bcos u know she is upset!!! Y u do this to me?? Y?? I didn treat u good enuff?? Since u make the choice le.. y still change?? u r hurting even more ppl.. I know everyone ard us didn think we can work out anymore.. do u noe tt the moment u ask me to be yr gf again.. I m willing to prove them wrong.. I m willing to dun care how they feel abt our relationship.. it is all abt us.. do u noe how upset I m when bob ask if I m yr gf.. n u didn hav the courage to tell him?? M I tt lousy for u to admit tt I m yr gf? Y muz u scare of how ppl look at us.. I can tell u.. I mind a lot abt how other look at me!!! but u r not alone.. u hav me.. y u dun dare to walk wit me thru? ( u tel me sth..yr love is not strong enuff to let u hav the courage to walk thru this wit me ) Y u leave me there to endure all these.. now everyone think I m a bad gal!! u r the ultimate who hurt me the most!! Y muz it be u? I been trying to tell myself it is not ur fault.. it is all other ppl who come in n interfere n make thing worst!!!!.. but is u the one who make the decision n didn wan to tel her.. y??? DUN bcos of yr surrounding change the decision.. is yr decision change the surrounding.. y u let how other look at us affect yr decision? U r hurting all parites.. n I can tel u if u feel tt she is suffering a lot.. den pls look at me!! The moment I know she is upset bcos u didn wan to talk to her, do u think I m happy.. I dunno y but I feel sad for her.. I understand how she feel u know!!!!! Y always gals the one who suffers???
Man, who can I blame but myself.. everything end here.. sorry boy.. I think by not choosing anyone.. u r choosing her le.. trust me.. I know wat I wan from u! I WAN U TO LOVE ME, TO HAVE ME IN YR HEART ONLI! I know it is hard.. but since other ppl can do it, y cant u.. so I m not asking too much.. I know u might feel I easily get jealous.. but who is the one who disapp me so many times.. who end up like other gal n stil wan me by yr side.. can u think back, how many times u have hurt me n yet I stil here to be juz for u??
Since all she wan is to talk to u on phone.. I guess u make the rite decision.. I think she is satisfied by juz talking to her.. she wont give u any stress tt I will give u.. hope tt she is the happiness tt u wan to give..
As for me.. dun worry.. I got so many good frenz.. u dun hav to worry.. juz leave me wit them n I will be satisfied.. btw, dun worry tt I might jump down or wat.., I might love u a lot but I love myself more..
I guess this is wat u wan.. both side happy.. thank u for making the effort in wanting to make happy.. thank u.. lastly.. this time u stick to yr decision ba.. I wont change it le.. since this is yr choice.. no one force u to it.. dun regret it! Take care.. at times of difficulties n disappointment, u will know who is the truly one for u!

2005-08-08T18:53:00.000+08:00

Yo..
Today is a tough day! eh, but can say I brought this upon myself ba.. I m determine to let him forget me ba.. I think I hav cause him a lot of unhappiness n aso give him a lot of pressure.. I m too protective over him.. in another words, I m too easily jealous le.. I think when he wit me, he is very pressurize by me.. hai~ I understand how he feel bcos ak felt tt way too.. n he tel me how it feel.. so the onli way to the prob is to forget him n let him carry on..
Hai~ but I know this is going to be hard.. thou today whole day I been avoiding him but my whole mind is thinking of him.. when I c his backview in IEF lect, how I wish I can go hug him from behind n tel him I love him.. hai~ today I get to know from clar tt he go cut hair alone.. hai~ I reali feel damn bad.. bcos tt time I tell him if he wan cut hair muz ask me go.. but he didn.. cos he msg me ask if I m still angry wit me.. but I didn reply.. I reali wan to tell him.. I m not angry wit him.. I m upset.. the reason is simple.. I wan him to love me, instead of bcos he feel obligated tt y he b wit me.. I reali hope tt thing can b simpler.. or mayb bcos I make it very confusing?? I dunno.. nvm.. but I aso get to know tt he is upset, I reali love him.. I dun wan him to be upset.. reali very sorry.. but if he endure thru this sad period of time, he will be happy wit all his frenz.. pls forgive me..
Today hard to pass sia.. long day.. got make up lect.. amy n clara aso moody.. very hard sia.. I reali hope tt today I reali got cheer them up.. hope tt they can rest more!! Hehe.. but nevertheless, tml I m going pinic wit them.. yeah!! I finally, persuade them to pei me go.. hahah.. but onli got 4 ppl going.. me, clara, deron n amy.. heheh.. I reali feel happy.. I reali wan go ECP to shout la.. hahah.. but it make me think of those time wit him.. hai~ I reali miss those day when he is so in love wit me.. hai~ no pt looking back~I have to be fair to him.. he has his own life.. reali hope tt he will live happier den I do.. anyone who know he is upset.. pls let me know.. thank you.. I end here le.. take care..

2005-08-06T02:55:00.000+08:00

Today is a sad day~ I have my IEF presentation.. hai~ I going to score damn low for it.. reali very upset cos all our infor, Ms Wong shoot until dunno like wat.. esp mine la.. doing political and I think I reali hai all my grp members.. I reali very sorry to Amy, Clara and Lloyd.. I reali shld hav put in more effort den this.. mayb if like tt we wont do tt badly.. In the class, reali feel like crying but cant la, Ms Wong there.. Amy n Clara damn sad, I know! I reali understand the feeling but treat this a lesson lo, we next time do project we ask each other more qns k? CHEER UP my gal.. I love u all..
Aft IEf, I reali dunno where is he.. I reali wan to cry in his shoulder cos I reali feel all my effort (thou not much) but stil go down to the drain.. somemore like let him down bcos the nite b4 he got wait for me.. reali so sad la.. but I saw bob n vin.. I reali v touched to receive msg from bob b4 we start our IEF.. he make me feel tt he cares for me actually..
Aft tt I spotted him wit another of his frenz.. the frenz there so I cant cry la.. But I told him I do badly, I thou he would take me to somewhere else so tt I can cry on his shoulder but he juz sit there.. so I juz leave him n go off.. he make me feel tt he dont care for me at all.. hai~ it upset me a lot.. already feel so bad abt pulling my whole grp down, he stil didn care for me..
Den Clara went off to do project wit Alex.. hehe.. Philip is there.. den very funny.. cos ltr me n Amy dont wan disturb le, so we walk off.. den Amy say bye to Clara n I saw Philip wave to say bye to Amy la ( cs he is looking at her waiting for her to wave bye back) haha.. but this Amy dunno n juz continue to walk off.. hahah.. actually, quite sad sia, he nv notice me much.. haha..
This sickening Andrew go tell Alex tt I like Philip la! Wats wrong wit him!!!??!! Hahah.. but Ak find out tt Alex thou Amy is the one who like Philip, n he told Philip abt it.. I guess this explain y Philip wave to Amy good bye.. haha.. damn funny.. hahaha..
I went back to find him, bcos I reali wan to talk to him one.. but his frenz still there so cant say aty.. den he told me jess is setting up a booth so I went over to find her n talk.. hehe.. so pretty la, the test tube can put name one.. so COOL! I like a lot.. ahha.. den bob came over to talk to me, actually I wan to physo Bob to buy it for Eve one.. but he already got sth for her.. tt I LOVE U cookie for her.. hehe.. so in the end he make one for me.. haha.. I get to choose the colour.. ahha.. YEAH!!! So happy, going to receive sth le..
Aft tt I wait for him, thou I finally got chance to talk to him or even cry out to him.. but when we leaving already, den he tell me he is not going off wit me le.. tt time I reali feel so sad n feel like crying.. wat the hell.. I wan to say I need u la.. but in the end he went find them to go play pool.. hai~ I think bob saw my face la, turn black sia.. lucky, I not alone, stil got Ak, Zhiwei n Amy, they reali cheer me up on the way to the bus stop.. but I juz cant help to think abt he n her.. I reali cant b happy.. I reali feel so upset..
61 come 1st b4 Amy bus, so Amy wan us wait for her bus.. in the end we wait damn long for 61 la.. wait until they all come out sia.. damn sianz la.. tt moment reali think KAO!!! So unlucky!!! Muz c how happy he is wit them again!! Freak!! Nvm, actually thou as long as 61 dont come yet dun need take same bus.. GUESS WAT??!!!! 61 come sia.. we took the same bus as them.. hai~ but sth damn funny is tt the next stop they all alight.. but think the bell not working, in the end, she n bob stil on the bus! Hahha.. so blur sia.. hehe..
I reali enjoy talking to Ak when we r on our way hm or to sch.. he reali brighten my day somehow.. ( Amy, Clara u 2 aso, dont jealous k?) hahaha.. so I rush hm to bath den aft tt rush out.. but he leh??? WAT THE HELL,!! He is stil playing pool wit them, tt time I reali very angry cos I already feel so sad le, u stil dun wan come meet me n talk to me!! FREAK, wats wrong wit u, man!!!! Herz!!! I scold him in the end, he took cab to westmall, I bet he took wit her too.. nvm.. I give him attitude thru out.. he aso dunno how to talk to me 1st la.. can reali c tt he dun wan to come one la.. it is like he wan to spend more time wit them, this is the main reason tt make me so angry n upset abt.. cos he dun care for me at all.. it is like my IEF fail aso not he prob.. I upset, aso not his prob..
So glad tt I meet Clara n Deron at Clementi.. hehe.. she so adorable when she quarrel wit him la.. reali very swt, like an old couple.. so loving.. but thru out the journey we quarrel again.. he like cant b bother wit me.. so I purposely wan to poke him to quarrel.. in the end he reali dao me!! Herz.. den Amy meet us at Raffles Place.. I juz keep talking to them instead of him.. dun care.. I saw my Aunt sia.. so heng, lucky nv do aty lame.. ahahaha..
We reach there juz nice saw Ak they all, but they left us cos need to wait for bob.. (ak u beta stop doing this la, we damn pissed cos u every time juz leave us like tt one leh ) cant wait huh.. stupid man.. aft den we go mac!! Hungry sia.. hehe.. Q damn long.. sianz.. wat to do, pig mah.. buy 9 filet meal la.. a lot sia.. eat along the way to Indoor Stadium.. buy for Clarence his frenz food, but cant bring in so hav to wait for them to come out.. Q so long, by the time we somewhere near the stair.. they decided tt they can forget abt eating le cos starting.. so we decided to smuggle some food in.. hhehe.. ken hide in his pocket.. the backside tt pocket in order to make his backside big.. hahaha.. den we drink all the coke up sia.. ahha.. we like kan tiong spider like tt.. hahaha.. haha.. anyway we go inside no more space le, so we hav to sit behind.. the spot we sit damn lousy!! Like shit.. it is the opposite of wat ppl c la.. can u imagine all the words for those song we dunno how to sing but aso cant understand.. reali didn enjoy la.. he keep msging her I reali feel so jealous.. KAO!! I reali cant control n concentrate la.. it is like I m there aso make no diff.. I think he muz be reali need her to keep him accompany ba..
All the way aft the priest speech, the 2nd worship session den I suddenly so sad.. I reali dunno y.. but when singing the song, I juz look at the ceiling hoping to c GOD! I reali wan to c him u know.. I reali need him..i reali feeling upset.. I reali look ard, hoping to c a face tt smile to me, n he tell me I m the GOD.. u understand?? I reali feel so disap.. I wan to c him.. I wan!! I wan!! Hai~ I cry a lot.. thank u Amy I reali need yr support at tt time ( yr stomach very nice to cry on) .. I reali feel so weak.. I feel so disheartened.. hai~
We left half, cos I cant continue le.. I reali feel upset.. aft tt.. but when outside we saw a couple la.. so wat sia, kissing so engross la so in their own world! but PLEASE la, u wan kiss go somewhere else la.. ppl r worshipping inside.. RESPECT k? herZ!!
Outside, I feel so much beta.. I reali dunno how.. so I juz try to be happy.. glad to hav Amy, reali!!! She talk to me on the journey back to Kallang mrt station.. ALL gal attention, I reali love u all.. muack.. thank u for pei ing when I need u all the most.. muack..
Aft tt actually is I say want to go eat n drink supper one la.. but in the end.. so late le.. I nv c the time sia.. den I panic cos I got no such money to take cab la.. I reali feel very waste of money n aso very funny to sit in the cab n trying to talk to him.. u understand?? Like got outside so near, cant reali talk.. so I juz request to take train.. Deron sorry leh.. reali.. I know u wan take cab one.. sorry..
I talk to him on the way aft Amy alighted.. I know he feel more confused now.. but I reali wan him to choose.. actually, I suddenly realize y I need him to choose?? Not as if it going to make a diff if he choose me.. but if she choose her, I will juz get out.. reali.. I reali dunno wat I wan.. I juz hate the idea of sharing him wit other gal la..
Today sad day la.. all the bad thing happen, so I reali dun mind more coming in.. so if any juz tel me now!!! Take care..

2005-08-03T00:41:00.000+08:00

Hello..
There is so much to say today..
Eh, how shld I begin.. I this few day reali v tired n I know he is tired too.. I reali v sorry to get him into this mess.. mayb if last time I can le him go, he wont be in this dilemma.. Today they told me tt she is very upset..( I aso get to know tt she cry everynight over him) i at the moment reali feel so upset one.. cos they r my good frenz even before she know them.. but they r siding her.. they r putting themselves in her shoe.. but wat abt me..? I m their frenz too.. m I reali ao annoying tt good frenz feel tt I m wrong? M I reali wrong? Yes, I admit I reali dun wan him to be wit her. I feel jealous n miserable abt it.. but.. isn she feeling jealous n miserable abt it too, if not she wont say it to u all! Y m I the wrong party? I mean u all can say her feeling for him cant b controlled.. but wat abt me? at the moment I reali cant take it tt y I get out of the room.. pls forgive if I m being rude.. I juz dun wan to spoilt u all mood..(didn reali get to wish u all, happy 1st week anni anyway)
I wan to say I very disap wit u all, not angry ba.. I cant blame u all, u all juz wan the best for him rite? U all dun wan him to regret for not choosing her,I understand.. cant u all try it in a nicer way? Wont it be beta for me to accept, wont it be more caring twd my feeling? I reali feel so sad la, imagine u yrself already feel so jealous, also juz like her, feeling v upset, yr good frenz come n say it is beta for u juz to leave them alone.. how will u feel? If I can choose, do u think I wan to be in this situation.. who wan to have a guy who like both gal.. who wan to share their love ones.. who wan to b jealous n cry everynight.. if the impression I giving u all tat I m enjoying myself by seeing her suffer in jealousy or wateva.. can I say u r wrong.. can u imagine everyday I have to worry abt him falling in love wit her.. I have to think abt how to win his heart over.. I juz wan him to be happy! I have no right in controlling him.. u all feel tt all I do is throw temper rite? If I dun do aty, will u all feel tt I m a nicer gal.. wat u all wan me to do.. put on a smile n be hypocrite? I m not like this.. weehoon will always show out her true feeling.. if I can choose, I wont wan to put up a sad face le, but I juz cant help it.. I know I making my frenz worry for me, but how can I control it? Can anyone teach me? I m juz a normal gal who wan to have someone to dote on.. who dun wan?
I reali very sorry to u all, I know I m being selfish for keeping him from her.. I reali wan to let go too.. but how? 2 yr.. isn a short time.. how to juz act as nth happen n carry on wit my life? U all always say can one, if I wan to.. can u imagine I tried how many times le.. n I m always crying over the same thing, can u imagine how tiring I m? I know u all r aso tiring of listening to my story abt how I fail to do it.. but I m the one who is going thru it, who will understand.. u all say keep trying harder!! I m trying harder but who can c?? onli when I fail den u all can c.. wat muz I do?
How? I dun wan to make him unhappy.. but I can say if I were to reali give up on him, I wont have any contact wit him.. but I know he wont b happy, cos he feel tat he lose a good frenz.. I know how he feel.. so how do I choose now!!??!!! Juz stay as his good frenz n c him wit other gal, n hide in corner to cry when no one is looking n act as if nth when I finish crying izzit?? If u can do it, tel me k? u will be my idol!!
Life is all about making choices! He scare he regret so m i.. but I wan him to happy..
Can someone assure me, If by letting go of him can ensure tt he is happy, I will willing to let go! I reali mean wat I say.. I m willing to get out of his life n carry on wit my life!
THIS IS TO HIM: boy, if u reali feel like trying out wit her den go ahead.. dun let me stop u.. dun worry.. I m not here to stop u.. I wan to say all I wan is yr true heart, if u dun love me den tel me.. if u scare u regret n will hurt me, den dun worry.. I will need to have some time to heal myself.. this can be treat as a healing time, or even our testing period.. if u reali wan to try out wit her den go.. if we r reali meant to be together, in the end we will still be together, no matter how many ppl come in between us.. our love for each other will stil be there.. ( tt is if u reali love me) I wont wan juz yr person to be wit me.. I wan yr true love.. I will wait for u if u wan me to.. if u reali find out tt u reali love her, den dun b guilty, it will aso be the period of time which I wait for my MR right.. I wan to leave u good impression.. I wan u to always remember me.. so juz be happy.. no matter wat is yr decision, u will hav my support.. for now concentrate on yr IEF 1st, everything leave to god.. on fri den u make a choice ba!
Lastly, I wan to say a BIG thank u to u clara.. I love u.. thank u for listening to me whining n crying n hugging..I reali feel beta! Amy, read le, muz come n kiss my backside, I will feel beta k? muack.. sorry boys if I give u all attitude, hope tt u all will understand aft reading this.. help me tel her.. dont be sad le, I m sorry for not being able to understand her feeling, I m once in her shoes b4 I can understand.. sorry.. tel her.. love is selfish.. it is not a thing cant be generous abt.. cant share.. cant rang gai(give to) other gal.. u have to go zhen qu(snatch) for yr own happiness..!!!

2005-08-02T00:50:00.000+08:00

I m feeling damn upset now! I failed again.. I think once a person no more feeling for u, no point in holding on to it.. it will lead to more pain! Amy, I should have juz listen to u! I reali feel so upset! I reali wonder how long more muz I endure.. I promise him le..
Can u imagine, I reali feel tt jealousy is more painful den he breaking up wit u.. seeing him with other gal, it is like a knife cutting thru yr heart! Sometime I reali wonder y god wan me go thru all this!! Y is he so heartless?? Y he treat me this way!!
I reali feel so happy the past few day, it will my Cinderella dream is all over.. midnight has come n all the beautiful dream is taken away from me! Wha, come to think abt it, I hold on to it so long le.. I nv expect someone will take him away from me.. I reali not tt kind of strong gal, who can let go juz like tt.. I reali wan to get over it.. but it is like all my effort in knowing him all go down to drain!!
Can u imagine how unhappy I m to lost to tt gal, it is like she take so short a time to get close to him.. n wat abt me!!! Long sia, 1 yr? I aso cant remember.. but mayb it is juz the gal who take so much initiative to get close to him! Can I say love is selfish??I know I m bad!! I not even his gf now, who m I to control him!! This is the reason y I cant do aty to it! I reali dun understand y guy always the one who is loved more by gal, rather den the opposite way!!! Y??? so unfair!! I reali wonder if I will be scare to have another relationship ever again! I think loving someone is very xing ku! God, y muz I go thru all this!! Will anyone ever love me more den I love him? I doubt so, I can never find anyone I love le! I reali feel hurt!
I wont say I blame him, he reali treat me v good, it is juz tt it is not the way I wan it to be.. but.. I reali feel sad la, I spend the nite to help him do project, the gal juz say a take care, go hm early, e sort of thing nia.. he is so willing to tell her he is moody n wan her concern!! But wat abt me?? I beside him, can u imagine, tt moment I reali feel like dying la! I m there u know!! M I dead or wat? Hai~ I reali feel so upset!!!!!!!!! =( I reali feel like I going to collapse le.. can I juz break the promise tt I have with him? Can I, can i?? but I reali wan him to be happy, but the person who can make him happy, NO LONGER me !!! how m I going to accept the fact!!!???!!! How?? I reali try so hard to make him happy, to cheer him up, to let him know tt I care a great deal abt him!! All I wan is him to know, is him to love me!! Hai~ love cant be force! Forget it!

2005-07-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

I got a NEW blog le! YEAH!~

Yo ho, I c u all all hav a blog reali make so left out la! Tt y I wan to create a new one, I very lame hor! Hee.. I aso dunno leh! I feel tt u all wan to read my blog rite? Ahah.. I grant yr wish, c I so gd.. ahha..
Today I very happy wo.. hehe.. Come wit Andrew to sch n at clementi I meet tsemin! hehe.. In the bus I siting between them (in between the 2 beast) ahaha.. juz kidding.. Feeling so xin fu wo! Hahha.. But wan to tel Andrew tt : Cheer up la, man! Yr good frenz, ME is always here to cheer u up wo!
The IEF presentation damn scary la! C them so formal I scare sia, tt y I whole lesson so stress, the room so cold somemore! Sorry amy n clara, I know u all not used to my quietness but bear wit it! Hhaaha.. stress mah! Hehe.. btw I very happy my ief pass la! Sorry tsemin I win u by 0.5 marks!!! Hahaha.. I got 60 marks wo! Haha..
After sch went for cell grp, abit fell asleep sia! Aso dunno y, but the thing my cg leader share very meaning! Keeping faith in god! hehe.. I think my faith fade off again.! Haha.. But I will regain it one! JiA You wee hoon!!
I went library aft tt and Amy let me c a very funny and interesting blog sia! Thank Diana and Greg for recommending to Amy! Haha.. His blog reali make me lol sia.. Brighten my afternoon! Ahha.. Anyone interested?? www.rockson.blogspot.com.. Hope tt I m rite? Hehhe
I went westmall aft doing a bit of OM project! Amy go buy her pant! I wan tel her: “yr pant very pretty, reali! Next time dun get a bigger size la, muz hav faith in yr washing machine! Haha”
Ltr tt, we (tsemin, amy, clara n deron) went to go shop for our (tsemin n mine) dinner.. hehe.. I went tsemin hse cook wo! Ahah.. In the end I onli help wash dishes sia! hehe.. The OIL scary, pop, pop, pop one! Hehe.. Have a lot of food sia! Tsemin is a FAT man la, cook so much, got bake bean, fish filet, nugget, mix bean, egg wit tuna! He eat so much la! (tsemin, u noe sth I go hm aso got nugget I c le, wan to vomit sia)
I leave his hse abt 10 sia! I miss my show la, the channel u tt show, so angry la.. CAN u imagine I run all the way hm like a mad women la, in the end I miss it! Damn bad mood! Suck man!
Wha, my 1st post so long le.. hehe.. k la.. time to end.. hehhe.. muack.. post when I free ya.. frenz, next time come read my blog ya, feel so left out la! I wan to be part of the reading blog fan club! Ehhee..